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January 2014 Weight Loss

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This year I am going to lose 50 pounds. Notice I said, I am going to lose 50 pounds. Not that I plan to lose or that I intend to lose. I believe affirming what your saying is 75% of the battle. The other 25% is actually doing. But with anything it all begins in the mind.

I know this is somewhat late getting started for the year, but to tell you the truth I have been busy. I am going to keep myself accountable by doing a present weight loss-weight gain-no weight loss at the end of every month.

Here are my stats for January 2014:

Weight Loss Goal 2014: 50 lbs

Monthly Pounds Lost for January 2014: 5 lbs

Pounds to Lose:  45 lbs

Inches lost: 1′ rib, 1′ waist, and 1.5′ hip

January 2014 was a time for me to reflect on what my new weight loss goal would be since I lost only 3 lbs during the holidays. Which in the grand scheme of things is not bad but would have been better if it was like 10 lbs. I stated away from alcohol and ate normal for most days. I did not let people pressure me to overeat. I have learned to politely decline when I am not hungry.

In March 2014 will be one year with no cold drinks. I have to say that to date, I honestly don’t miss them, even Diet Mountain Dew.

I know this is late for January but I promise to post February’s weight loss/gain in a more timely manner. 🙂

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Are you ready to lose weight?

Are you ready to lose weight? Did you make losing weight one of your New Year’s resolutions? Focusing on your health and well-being should be a priority before losing weight. I know this to be true as once I made healthier choices and ate less the weight just slowly started coming off. Grant you I have a long way to go before I am done losing but I have started on a path that I am building on for a healthier future. In order to be healthier one must take baby steps. The first step though is always the hardest and one must have a solid foundation in order to be successful.


Here are some lessons learned from last years weight loss.

Changing old habits: This is much tougher than it sounds. The first thing I did was start eating less. I ate whatever I wanted (baby step for me) but ate less of everything. I lost weight right away by simply doing this. Then I focused on making healthier choices. This was tough I will admit, but I promise once you start and get used to eating healthier it will become a part of your daily eating.

Begin with baby steps. Take my advice and go slow. Taking baby steps will ensure a  permanent lifestyle change. I can no longer eat large portions of food and even if I have foods like brownies, cookies, or the like, I still don’t gain a pound.

Make your well-being a priority: Ask yourself this, “What is the purpose of my weight loss?” Most would answer the purpose is to be healthier and look great. Right? In essence this is correct however, you have to decide what is important in this regard. No one can make you change. Only you can. Being healthy is beyond weight loss. A focus on being healthier ensures your body is getting vital nutrients to maintain important functions.

Changing your lifestyle to fit your healthier living: To succeed with new lifestyle changes you have to replace old habits with new ones. Of course, this is easier said than done but it’s well worth the time and patience. I started by eliminating fast food. It took about 3 months for me to accomplish this. I did fail a couple of times and ran to the border for nachos. (the small nachos of course) LOL But I never gave up so now I simply do not eat fast food nor do I even miss that kind of food. The cravings for fast food went away too.


Next I stopped drinking cold drinks. Let me tell you this was a hard one for me. I absolutely love Diet Mountain Dew! I would drink this daily. For me, I had to wean myself down. I would drink quite a bit of  Diet Mountain Dew so I started with half the normal amount. Then when I was ready (about a month later) I went from that half amount to half of the half amount. Then one day I just did not drink it at all. It worked! Over a period of about 2 months I was off all cola type of drinks.

Be patient when you fail: When you do fail or have a day where you over do it, just begin again with the very next meal. I have learned that when I make a food mistake I just start with my next meal and eat as planned. Don’t give up simply because of a bad day or one meal that went wrong. Just start with the next meal and plan better for the future. It’s ok to fail sometimes as this shows you where your weaknesses are and how to overcome them. Look at failing as a way to learn to be better next time. The hardest part of failing is to forgive yourself and forget about the mistake. Then move forward. After all you cannot change what is done but you can change how you react to that same situation in the future.

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Kell Kell’s One Year Update

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November marks my one year journey for healthier living and losing weight. Yes, I have been changing things all year for the betterment of me. I have made many changes these past 12 months and thought I would share some of them with you; my friends, family, and my newest fans. I never post body pics. For me to only post body pics is huge so be NICE.

Weight Loss: I have lost a total of 60 lbs! While this is nothing new to some of you, to others this is new information. By simply eating less yet, eating whatever I wanted, I have lost weight. Here and there were days I did exercise but for the most part there has been no physical activity. Honestly, I hate exercising even though I know its one of those necessary evils. I am so proud of myself for the 60 lbs of weight loss. Maybe if I had committed to exercise the weight loss/inches lost would have been more.

Inches Lost: Inches have been lost! Yay! Around the hips I lost 7 inches. The hips being the largest part of my body. In the waist I have lost 5 inches. But you know I didn’t just measure myself right away. I measured my inches lost by how I fit into my desk chair at home. Every so often I would be sitting in that chair and I would notice it wasn’t such a tight fit. Then one day I noticed I did not even have a tight fit at all. These types of realizations let me know I am doing something right.

Diet Changes: I longer drink cola’s or fast food. I used to drink diet cola’s daily and eat out 2 times a week or more. Slowly I have stopped both of these over the course of 3-6 months. Yea, it took it awhile. Occasionally, I will have Taco Bell or McDonald’s french fries (I won’t eat their pink sludge hamburgers-YUCKO!) but it’s now a rarity and only if I really want to eat “bad”. I eat pretty clean for the most part and when I do have snacks I stick with yogurt (high protein kind) and fresh fruits. I have also went non-GMO and all organic when my budget allows.

Clothes: Everything is loose. All my jeans, shorts, sweaters, shirts, and even my bras/panties. It’s almost time to be buying all new things. That’s not so bad to think about either as I like shopping for new things. Especially if they are in a smaller size. I also noticed a bath sheet wraps completely around my body which the first day I noticed that, I was so happy I ran around naked. Just the other day I put on a shirt I wore last year this time at 60 lbs heavier and that same shirt now all the way down to below my hips and butt. It was such a good feeling to know that the small lifestyle changes worked.

Dating/Men: I am dating again. However, dating is a fickle bitch. Some men still won’t get to know me simply because of the weight and others just don’t care because they want only to play games. Regardless, this has been an interesting aspect of my life. I will say this, most of you SUCK. See a previous blog called You lie like a rug.

Are there anymore decent single men?

By the way, if you (men) can’t accept me as I am now what makes you think I will want to be with you when I am at my goal weight? I mean really? I won’t be with someone shallow or someone who does not see who I really am. I won’t change who I am simply because I have lost weight. I am still and will continue to be the same person. So If you can’t be with me now or don’t find me “attractive” then don’t come sniffing around when I have the hour-glass figure and I am at a normal weight. Be gone Satan!

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Look I have the “start” of the hour-glass shape!

New Goals:

This year I want to lose 50 lbs or more. I need to lose 110 to 120 lbs to be at or around goal weight. I think 50 lbs or more is a realistic goal and one that can be achieved easily by simply continuation of what I am currently doing.

Eating organic and non-GMO will continue even through the holidays. Eating less is now common for me as my body cannot handle a large amount of food. Yes Peeps, once you train your body to eat less, your stomach will shrink naturally. I found that I feel 10 times better than ever by not overeating.

I will try to find something I enjoy for physical activity. I just hate to exercise and have no inspiration to do so. Maybe if I had a hot hunky man to chase it would be different. Sigh….oh well. One day, I know my Prince Charming will rescue my loneliness and provide for all my personal needs. Smiling. My Prince Charming will also be healthy and encourage that everyday.

I will continue to blog and write about my experiences as a fat girl. Especially where dating and men are concerned. I think its important for people to understand that us fat girls are just like everyone else. This next year I am committed to writing a novel. Trust me, anything I write will be awesome as I am awesome! Ha!

To Sum It Up:

You know, food is really not that important anymore.

I plan to continue this new lifestyle the rest of my life.

Time and patience with yourself and your body is the key.

No more fad diets or unhealthy eating.

A worthy man is rare to find but I will find him.

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The New Me Emerging

The new me is emerging in small segments. It should be noted that most people when they start losing weight, make additional lifestyle changes other than losing weight. I am no different. Losing weight opens ‘doors’ and you begin to see that what you put up with originally simply won’t “cut it” anymore.

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One of these changes is getting rid of negative people. Don’t you just hate when you are happy and life is good and then here comes someone who wants you to be miserable by ‘raining on your parade’? Usually this person is someone close to you. Can anyone say “jealous”? It’s sad that some people hate that your so positive about everything because they are so miserable. I refuse to be in the company of people like this anymore. If friends, family, co-workers are negative, I will simply walk away or just smile. Life is really that simple.

Another change is not denying myself any longer. What I mean by this is that I am not moldable to my environment. Now in the past, I used to mold to my environment and make the best of whatever situation. Now if someone is trying to influence my decision, environment, etc, I will state how I feel or give my own perspective. I define it as coming into myself and being ok with who I am and what I want for the future.

The lucky people who know me personally would think the above paragraph is laughable as they would describe me as dominant, highly confident, and always speak my mind. It’s almost funny at how people actually know so little about me. Or maybe it’s that they do not look beyond the superficial aspect of me. Or maybe it’s because in the grand scheme of things they don’t really care.

A person (a man) once told me they thought I was a man hater. LOL It is laughable to even think someone who barely knows me would have this perception of me. I guess I am a man hater because I do not fit a certain “mold” that this person has in their own realm of understanding. Or maybe it’s because I simply will not let a man walk all over me because he has a penis and I have boobies. Who knows?

What is even stranger still is that I am still the same person I was 57lbs ago but just modified. I know what I want and will head towards that goal. Anyone not wanting to be in my life, I will gladly let move on.

Bottom Line:

I just don’t care what others think anymore. As one gets older I do believe this gets easier. Maybe this is why old women wear purple or sexy inappropriate black dresses? Who cares if you think I am pretty or not? Who cares if you don’t approve of my lifestyle/health choices? Who cares if you’re a miserable creatan of a human being who is negative and deserves your own sense of negative karma? Guess what? I don’t care. I will do whatever makes me happy and in doing so will make you look like a “hehe”. (Inside joke those hehe’s.)

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More Sleep = Weight Loss


Think you can get by on 5 or 6 hours of sleep or less and still lose weight? Wrong! Getting enough sleep is vital to losing weight permanently and keeping it off. Personally, this is one area I still struggle with. Learning to balance eating healthy/less, exercise, and getting plenty of sleep along with other factors like working, shopping, errands, social commitments, family, etc can make it seem impossible to get enough rest. One would think with the whirlwind of “things to do” that need our time and attention we would simply pass out when bed time comes.

Why is sleep so important?

Sleep is important because sleep helps to regulate two hormones. One hormone is called ghrelin. Ghrelin tells your body when to eat. If you are sleep deprived, than you will have too much ghrelin in your system which will trigger additional hunger. The second hormone is called leptin. Leptin tells your body when to stop eating. If you are sleep deprived there is a shortage of leptin which means your body will not “tell you” to stop eating. Here’s the formula:

7.5 hrs or less of sleep + more Ghrelin/less Leptin= weight gain

7.5 hrs or more of sleep + balanced Ghrelin and Leptin = weight loss

This applies to both men and women.

Sleep also helps to regulate the metabolism. If you have a sluggish metabolism getting more sleep may help to regulate that better. Click on the links provided for more information.

Bottom Line:

What’s really important here is that all individual’s find time to get plenty of zzzzz’s. It’s crucial to weight/fat loss and balancing the two hormones that affect weight gain/reduction. For individuals who do not need to lose weight or are height/weight proportionate, sleep is just as important because you will gain weight with continued sleep deprivation.

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I Am Shrinking…Slowly!


Yes, Its true! I am finally succeeding in losing weight for the first time in my life. Since 11/15/12 I have been committed to a healthier and skinner ME. Of course, I had my doctors help for a few months (its a documented thyroid issue) but honestly, that’s all I have needed. Below is an update of whats going on 8 months after beginning this journey. By the way, I still eat whatever I want. Yes, this includes what most would consider no no’s LOL.  The key here really is portion size. Should I say it again? The key is PORTION size.


I have noticed that I am having to “down” some sizes. My bra had to go one up from the end one and all my jeans now are loose. Was able to put on a pair of shorts that I bought last year on clearance which I could not get around my hips and butt. It feels so good to be wearing them! A couple of shirts I wore last summer were almost too tight but now are loose and hang down over my lower stomach/hips. Everything I have either fits right or is loose.

Meals and Eating:

I don’t eat as much anymore. This was the hard part about taking this journey. I love food! I have learned over the last six months and with A LOT of patience, to eat within a normal range. I try to eat no less than 4 small (what can fit into the palm of my hand) meals even though I try for 5-6 meals a day. I simply cannot eat that much. I never thought I, of all people, would ever say that. I do not eat out anymore as it’s not worth the price health wise. I do not restrict myself and I have slowed my eating down quite a bit. I will say more in my food choices in another blog.

Lifestyle Changes:

I have learned to be patient with myself and my body. This is perhaps the hardest thing for anyone but more so for me. I always wanted instant weight loss. All of my life I have been overweight. One of the biggest challenges, lifestyle wise, is to simply say no when: either I just ate and am not truly hungry or simply declining desert. Friends and family are not losing weight so this is hard, but I have learned that with merely saying “no thank you” or just stating I am not hungry works for me.

Another lifestyle change is that I sleep better. I actually get more sleep and have a quality of sleep I just didn’t have 50 lbs ago. Yep, I have lost 50lbs! I also try to get no less than 6 hours sleep with 7-8 hrs being the goal.


Men are starting to take an active interest in me again. Not that they weren’t before but now its like there are more of them that want to “get to know me”. Yes, sad to say, even the married ones. Sigh, oh well thats for another blog too. My best friend, who just happens to be a male, just recently complimented me saying, “Your getting tinier!” To which I replied, “Yes I am!” LOL These kinds of compliments not only make me feel good but they also are letting me know that what I am doing is right. So guys feel free to keep the compliments coming. Women love it when men notice their weight loss!

Bottom Line:

I am doing this for the long haul which means I have to take the time to let my body adjust. After all, I did all this damage to my body over my entire life, the least I can do is let it shrink slowly while I enjoy a cupcake with extra frosting! YUM!

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Pound by Pound


So you know they say that you lose weight from the outside and go inward? (ex. your face, your ankles, hands, on inward with the stomach and hips being last) Well, when I measured my waist and hips, I lost 6 inches around my hips and 2 in my waist line. Just so you know I had not measured myself in quite some time as the weight was not coming off some weeks, but there was no gain either. There was no inches lost anywhere else. I find this odd as in previous times losing weight I would always lose weight/inches from the “outside in”. It seems this new path I am on has reversed that.

Every woman dreams of losing INCHES around her hips and waist FIRST. My body is finally cooperating with me in this regard! All this with NO exercise. Yep, I am still not exercising. I know I know, I need to start walking or something as this may help to escalate weight loss and inches lost. I just hate to exercise. I guess I need some motivation like a good looking  sack of man to run ahead of me. Oh! I know, he needs to be a hot hot hot, (and tall) (and rich) and the deal is if I catch him than I would get to have my way with him. LOL Now all I need is a hot dude to inspire me. ha!

Patience, Patience, Patience! The hardest thing about losing weight slowly is those weeks where only one pound or no pounds are lost; especially if you have worked hard to eat better. The key here is to be patient with your body and most importantly with yourself. I am not always patient, but I am learning to be more forgiving of my eating mistakes. That’s the hardest thing to do is to forgive yourself. This is a lifelong battle that I must win. (Actually, I intend to win the WAR in my weight!) So take that you fatty deposits and lumps of celluite!

Lifestyle Tip:  Stay away from fast food and eating out in general! Yep, that means Micky D’s or that weekly pizza delivery! I hardly ever eat out anymore as I cannot control whats in the food. However, don’t think this has stopped me from enjoying being out with friends and family when those occasions arise. I actually still eat whatever I want even when eating out. I really just can not eat a lot anymore, so more than half usually goes home with me. Eating less in general, has programed my body to accept less food (stomach shrinkage). I have saved money too by not eating out. I also watch my alcohol consumption with a limit of 1 or 2 drinks a week or none zip zero on most weeks. 🙂

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A New Diet Plan!

 A New Plan!

This looks like a good idea right?

I can make yummy cupcakes for all my friends to make them fatter while I eat none. I get skinnier and they have to hit the gym. LOL

Maybe this is just mean, (Ya think?) but don’t we sometimes feel like this? Be honest, there are times when you wish you were the “skinnier” one or looked better or could out run them; the list could go on and on. I know I feel this way sometimes. There are times when I just want to scream because the weight is just not coming off as fast as I would like. When I get overwhelmed like this I tend to stop and rethink WHY I am feeling this way. Then I realize that I have nothing to worry about as I am simply me; and I like who I am and who I am slowly becoming.

So to all the skinny people; watch out!

I make very good cupcakes! 🙂

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Just the Word Diet…Ugh!


Are you sick of dieting?  Just the word diet makes me say…ugh! A few months back (Nov/2012) my doctor told me to stop dieting and focus on eating less, eating healthier, and exercising 3-5 days a week.  This is easier said than done! Am I right or AM I RIGHT? LOL

All three are hard to do when you’re at a friend’s birthday dinner and up comes that delicious dense chocolate cake with a candy topping. Sigh. Or when your out at a local pub and those wings are calling to you with the spicy asian sauce. Yum! Oh and don’t forget the apple flavored beer called Angry Orchard, which is so good and leaves a pleasant after taste in one’s mouth long after consumed. Sigh…

So what is a woman to do with these kinds of temptations facing her? Well, the key really is eating less. “No!” you say, “How can this be when I practically starve myself and exercise 5 hours day?”  but its true. I took a prescription drug called Phentermine for four months; and during that four months I did nothing to change my eating habits; no exercising as I absolutely HATE exercising. That little blue speckled pill helped me shed 34 lbs in four months with nothing more than eating less. This is a huge feat since I have been overweight all my adult life and most of my childhood. Yes, you heard me correctly, I ate as normal; I ate what I wanted, and when I wanted. The difference this time is that while taking the little blue speckled pill, I just didn’t want to eat as much.

The unfortunate part of taking this drug is a person cannot stay on Phentermine indefinitely. Especially if you are the type of person that would yell at someone for just looking at you wrong (high blood pressure/heavy stress load) or you have a history of heart disease, over active thyroid, and if your pregnant or nursing. See link at top of page for additional info.

Personally, I have never endorsed taking a prescription drug for anything that is not needed. But I have to say that this little pill works; I just wish it was safe enough to take for a longer period as individuals who have more than 30 lbs to lose could benefit significantly from this drug.